Thursday, September 27, 2012

The Gift of Patience

When the boys were born, so was a bit more patience.
I am not the most patient person in the world. I wish I was. It definitely a weakness I try to work on.
I had a hard time recovering after my c-section. The actual c-section was a breeze and I'd totally do it again, but my incision burst and I was also on blood thinners so I had some crazy annoying complications. I was in the hospital, in and out a few times after the boys went home. It was so painful to be missing those first days with my boys. I knew they were in great care, but I couldn't handle not being with them. I waited nine months for them and they were finally here, but I couldn't be with them. Needless to say, I was quite impatient in the hospital (interiorly) waiting to be able to be home for good.

Aside from that though, God definitely graced me with more patience since they were born. And boy, I wouldn't be able to do this without it. Having two babies at once, the first time around, is a lot of work. They are the greatest gift and the biggest joy, but that doesn't lessen the amount of time and work. Will is a rather calm and content baby, but Gus is a little demanding. He needs to be cared for a bit more. I have him laying on my lap, and am rocking him back and forth with my legs. I have had to get paper work done, phone calls made... and yes, this blog post up! I need my hands. The problem is, Will also cries at the same time sometimes and I need to comfort both babies, with only two hands. It's so difficult, especially when I still can't carry much weight or wear our baby carrier because of my incision/wound vac.

Night time is hard and that is when I lose my patience at times. I think I have done pretty well with it, but sometimes, after a really long day alone and then a long, sleepless night, I get tired. It is amazing though because when you feel like you just can't do it any more in the middle of the night, when you wake up the next morning, you forget it all and are able to start again... despite being exhausted.

I am so grateful for the gift of a little extra patience. It certainly doesn't mean I never lose my patience, because I do. But this extra bit helps me cope better with this new and wonderful adjustment! 

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Two Days Down

Well, I have accomplished two days on my own now and though it is very difficult and a lot of work, it is wonderful and fun all at the same time! I know I can do this, at least with a little hand of extra help here and there! Just wanted to let you know all was well. Hopefully I will post a better and longer update soon!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

A Welcomed Visit

My brother-in-law and sister-in-law came for the weekend to meet their godsons. Alex is Gus's godfather and Erin is Will's godmother. They came for a visit and then to drive home with Mami so she didn't have to make the trip alone. They arrived in time for dinner on Friday night and had to leave real early on Sunday. It was such a nice visit, but way to short. I really wish they lived close by so the boys could enjoy them... and so could I. I always have such a great time with them. Thankfully they will be back for another visit in a few weeks for the boys' Baptism. It's going to be another short visit, but it is certainly better than nothing! 
On Saturday I sent everyone out to enjoy Mono's favorite spot for barbecue and I stayed home with the boys for my first time alone. It was challenging, but I did it! I was happy to have everyone back later on though. I wish we could have done more, but it is hard not taking the boys out and while I am still recovering. Hopefully one of their next visits we can all venture out... including the boys! 
Gus and Will loved their aunt and uncle's visit and I am pretty sure it was mutual!

Friday, September 7, 2012

Is There Such a Gift as Your Own Get Well Gift?

Is there a point where it can become acceptable to buy yourself a get well gift?
After having our boys, I have been back in the hospital for two more stays... and they aren't even two weeks old yet.
This isn't a pity party, just a pick-me-up.
A "you are in the clear, and are doing so well," kinda gift.
Are there such presents?
Probably not. But why not start the idea?! Someone should!

I love my Longchamp Le Pliage black tote and I carry it everywhere. Sometimes, if I am using a smaller purse for just a few things, like when going out to dinner, I still keep my daily needs (planner, sun glasses, a few cosmetics, etc) tucked away in there and leave it in the car or at least at home, ready for use again! It's the perfect size. It is okay to get banged around a bit too.
And a great feature, it can fold up so neatly and small that it is great for tucking away in your luggage. I did that one our honeymoon. I brought my small cute clutches for dinners out and such, and took out my Le Pliage for some daily outings in which I'd need a bit more storage space.

Now, while I was not planning on really carrying a purse with me, along with my diaper bag, I had the idea of having an easy to use purse, with my belongings (planner, keys, phone, etc.), that can be stashed inside there. This way my things don't get lost in the huge bag and I can take that out and have my purse all ready to go if I don't need to carrying my big bag for the boys.

I think that sounds rather doable. I just needed to think of the perfect bag to use. It cannot be heavy at all, or bulky, or else it would add way too much to the weight of their diaper bag and take up too much space. So... I think the best purse is the Le Pliage in navy... it matches their diaper bag too since the main color of that is navy. It's the same as my black one, (medium size with long handles), just in my fav. navy color!

Now, since I can't go shopping, I had to look online to see it's availability... It came up at Saks, which happens to be very close by to the hospital...and it is in stock (limited availability). I wonder if they deliver? hehe. But, before I could get through to that website, this came up:
 Do you think some of the other wives and moms here at the hospital may be thinking the exact same thing I am (wondering if they can be qualified to purchase a get well gift for themselves) and the husbands have gotten together to some how pull strings for this page to come up when any credit card could so easily be used?

Oh, all of this is just to humor myself while I sit here. I am serious about wanting this. But not serious in being able to get it for myself. I have received the greatest gifts ever (my boys) and no get well gift could compare to just being home with them... though this would be pretty nice!! I have to be up and about in the room a little more, but I thought I'd get some of my crazy thoughts out first so I don't trip over them!

Anyone in favor of this idea, raise your hand!

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Saying Goodbye to Summer and Hello to New Life!

Summer is over. Labor Day has passed. School is back in session. 
I may not have been able to sport around my cute white skirts and pants (due to a very enlarged waist). I may not have soaked up a single ray of sun by the waterside, or go on any vacations. And the summer's heat may still be sticking around for an un-welcomed amount of time... But, what is here and just beginning is a fun life with our little guys! And not having any of those summer fun memories for 2012 is totally worth it having them in our life! 
Gus and Will were born one week ago today, August 28th. Gus came into the world (7 lbs. 4 oz.) at 7:34 and his little brother (6 lbs. 4 oz.) following one minute later at 7:35. They were both born at wonderful weights (if you calculate that, I was carrying around over 13 lbs. of baby!) and were so healthy. No need for even a second in the NICU, which was the greatest blessing. They are the most beautiful little guys and I am so in love with them. 
Unfortunately I haven't had much time with them yet, having had to be re-admitted back into the hospital, but they are at home in the loving hands of their grandparents. I hope to go home today and get on with life outside of the hospital. I am looking forward to lots of picture taking with them, quiet moments and just the general day to day life with those precious boys of ours. I am not sure how often I will be able to post, but I will do my best to still keep this going.